
When you decide to own a pet, you usually don't take into account that your little bundle of fur or scales might develop a serious condition or chronic illness. I certainly didn't.
When Pooky was first diagnosed as being in renal failure, I found via telephone conversation with the ER vet on call. Since it was a holiday weekend, I had four long days to wait for the specialist to evaluate him. Excruciating. Every time I called to find out what his blood work showed for that day, the numbers seemed to tell that he was on death's doorstep. One vet basically said that it did not look good and that I should start preparing.
I fell apart. Then I went online and did research and found the
CRF Yahoo! group. Those folks were invaluable. I had felt so alone, and here were folks that were going through the same thing. Through them I found other groups to help me assist feed him properly when he came home, learn about feline anemia and learn about how to control the level of phosphorus in his system.
Prior to this, I was generally the type to fall apart when a pet got sick. I never thought I would be able to ever properly pill a cat, much less stick a needle in one every night. As I got more proficient at medicating Pooky, some of my stress dissipated. Yet, every day for the first 3 or 4 months I would look at him and think that my time with him was limited. Sometimes this made me cry. Other times, this thought would be followed by a feeling of pure love. I'd look at his little face and think how lucky I was to have bonded with him. Whatever time he had left, it was going to be the best.
One day, I stopped waking up dreading that I'd find him dead or really sick again. All of his check-ups so far had been positive. He wasn't getting worse and his numbers reflected what the vet considered to be moderate CRF. He had started showing much more interest in his 'kidney kibble' and was as playful as he was before he crashed.
That changed three weeks ago on a Sunday. I woke up to feed Pumpkin and Pooky, and he didn't run up to greet me. He was curled up on my knitting and had no interest in me or in breakfast. I was half asleep, so I picked him up and put him in our extra room so that he would eat his kibble and not be tempted by Pumpkin's food and went back to bed. As I closed my eyes to let sleep overtake me once more, I realized that something was not right.
I flew out of bed and went to him. He was curled up,
third eyelid somewhat covering his eyes and not interested in being petted. I woke Unfriendly up.
"Hey," I shook him awake. "Loki's not doing well".
I didn't cry. I didn't freak out. We tried to get him to eat or drink. No go.
"Ok kid. Time for you to go to the vet"
When we got to the ER vet's office, the doctor that told me 8 months ago that it didn't look good for him was the one who was on duty. I honestly expected the worst from her. She found that he had a temperature and took his blood to run tests to see if he was having a crash from the Chronic Renal Failure. She said he looked really good though. He was meowing and actively curious which was not how he had been when they last met.
The tests showed that his pancreatic enzymes were elevated. She hadn't felt any abnormalities in his abdomen. His treatment was to stay overnight for IV fluid therapy and some antibiotics. She wanted his specialist, who happens to own the ER practice, to see him in the morning and further advise me.
"But he looks great. You wouldn't think he was sick. He's still a little anemic, but his hematocrit is up! And he weighs 11 pounds now! "
He was close to 8 in December. 12 is his normal weight. And in addition to being less anemic, his electrolytes and phosphorus levels were in normal range. My consistency in giving him medicine showed. Her upbeat tone was encouraging, yet the question persisted -why was he sick?
I had missed giving him his nightly fluids the Saturday before. His specialist thought he might have been a little dehydrated and possibly had a reaction, or that he caught a bug and that we nipped it in time. Hard to tell, since he didn't seem at all sick to the specialist.
Damn cat made me a liar! Well, almost. He did have a temperature.
It took him a day to get back to eating. He is back to his frisky, playful, loving self. I'm not sure what his sudden reaction means in the long run. What I do know is that I've become better at dealing with my pets' mortality. I'm proud that my first instinct this time was not to crumble, but to deal with the situation and hope for the best.